The Thanksgiving holiday is about gratitude. Which can make it worse.

For years, I avoided Thanksgiving. I said it was about the food. I claimed that as a vegetarian, I could not share a table with my meat-eating parents.

For years, I avoided Thanksgiving. I said it was about the food. I claimed that as a vegetarian, I could not share a table with my meat-eating parents.

I endured the experience through high school, but once I was in college, my parents went to relatives’ homes while I flew to Europe for the cheapest international travel week of the year. We’re not close, I explained to anyone who asked. After graduate school, there was a decade of "Friendsgiving." Massive dinners at my apartment for all the vegetarians, vegans and orphans: those whose families were far away or nonexistent. 

The gratitude I feel now is genuine — but it is not for being chosen to be adopted.

But it wasn’t just that I didn’t like turkey or football. It was that, growing up, I was not especially thankful. The spirit of the holiday evaded me.

Instead, I felt filled with a sadness I could not name. A sense of loss so deep inside me, so primal, so raw, that I’d lived with it day in and day out. What’s wrong? people asked as I edged into adolescence. Nothing, I always answered gloomily. I could never articulate exactly what it was I felt so acutely, yet was trying so hard to ignore. But little twinges of grief shrouded in anger reached my heart whenever I heard variations of several themes.

https://www.nbcnews.com/think/opinion/thanksgiving-holiday-meal-gratitude-can-make-celebrating-worse-rcna57801


Post ID: 82f0ee09-d724-4818-8b21-7dcc718728fe
Rating: 5
Updated: 1 week ago
Your ad can be here
Create Post

Similar classified ads


News's other ads